Feel Free To Gag

I was chatting with a friend of Thomas' yesterday via IM and we were discussing how neither of us would go back in time, if given the chance, and alter the choices we had made.  Little decisions we make on a daily basis can severely alter our futures and if we're happy with the place that we now find ourselves in going back to change anything could mean different results. 

I have never and will never regret any decision I have made in my past.  All of those choices, whether good or bad, have made me who I am now.  They've brought me to this place and I'm grateful for everything.  

She also reminded me of a song and how it describes that even with the all of the hurt that we've felt in the past it all has led to where we are now.  

"I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you"

Yes, it's sickingly sweet and may not be true, but I'd like to have faith that someone somewhere has a plan for me.  Faith is difficult to hold on to when you feel you've been kicked while you're already down.  That the universe has it out for you and that you'll never feel as if you're whole again.  But I truly believe that if you keep the faith and you believe you deserve it happiness will find you.