Thursday, January 29, 2009

Don't Mind Me, I'm Just Being Dramatic. Maybe It's The PMS.

During the entire year of 2008 it felt like I was constantly on the go. Fly here, party there, weekends spent by the pool drinking more beers than I care to think about, every night there was a plan to do something. Did I have fun? You bet your ass I did. Even when I was feeling at my lowest I was constantly in motion. When my life began to calm down and I looked back I couldn't believe that an entire year had flown by.

My boss had been worried about me last year. Looking back I can't blame him really. It was like this whole new employee showed up in his office one day. The day before I had just been me. The hard working, grounded (read: boring), jovial me. I was predictable and I was cheerful. Then one day that employee changed. I was emotional, I was sad, and I was distracted. He figured that if everything else in my life was different then why not my job. He figured wrong. In the end I realized that the only constant in my life, the one thing that I knew would never change, would be my job. I could walk in, do what I needed to do, and knew that it would be there for me the next day. That stability meant something to me. When my entire world was chaos, my job was steady.

Stability in my personal life has taken some getting used to. After being hurt it's difficult to go back to a place that leaves you vulnerable. You open your heart, you take a risk. I took my risk and waited for the rug to be pulled out from underneath me. The optimist in me knew that I would have my happily ever after. The pessimist in me waited for the worst case scenario - heartbreak.

The worst case scenario didn't happen. Only the good has come my way and along with the good is the stability. Stability in knowing that I will come home to someone who wants me there. Stability in knowing that there won't be a fight waiting for me around the corner. Stability in feeling safe, secure, and happy. And with it comes contentment, and sometimes that contentment brings stagnation. I don't feel that though. I revel in the idea of scooting home after work, having dinner, and watching TV. Maybe it's the cold that makes me feel like being a hermit, or maybe it's just the fact that I am happy with my home life.

For so long it was GO GO GO and now it's time to kick back and enjoy the life that I have. For once, my life is stable. For once, I am not afraid.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Let The Freaking Out Commence!

Brace yourself...North Texas is under a WEATHER ALERT.

Dun dun dunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Seriously, people. It's wet outside, and yes it is cold, but must we all act like idiots? I wish I were kidding, I really do. There are people online right now who are UP IN ARMS because they had to go to work today. People who have nothing better to do than sit in a chat room and talk to other people about when the roads might start to ice.

Feel free to join in on the chat if you're in the DFW area and actually give a shit. But a word of warning, don't write "OMG Y'ALL. IT'S WET AND COLD OUTSIDE! I THINK WE MIGHT DIE." They frown upon that.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Birthday Re-Cap...Finally

Nothing bad happened on my birthday. Not a single thing.

I woke up next to the man that I love. I received numerous phone calls, emails, and text messages from the people who I hold near and dear. I had lunch with friends and Thomas. I did a little shopping for myself. I napped, and it was spectacular. Thomas and I had a wonderful dinner and then spent the rest of the night out on the town.

If there is one day of the year you should feel special it should be on your birthday, the day you were brought into this world. I felt special that day.

In the end, it was perfect. A perfect birthday. I couldn't have asked for more.

Thursday, January 15, 2009


Less than 12 hours until my birthday.

Had a damn good lunch courtesy of my boss. Received giftcard and card that made me chuckle because it all referred to us as "inmates".

Outlook for the rest of the evening: Positive. Involves chicken and chocolate pudding. Don't ask.

*Nothing Bad Has Happened Yet


Here's the birfday loot so far!

Early birthday gifts!!

Sweet and funny birfday cards from my co-workers, my wonderful Gramma, and my homegirl Princess!!! As well as some sweet smellin' lotions and soaps (I think she's trying to tell me something) and pink Crocs from Thomas!!! PINK! CROCS! With butterfly button thingies on them!! OMG! I used to hate/loathe Crocs with a passion but after wearing Thomas' on occasion and realizing how gawdawful comfortable they are, I wanted a pair for myself and now I gots them!! Lovelovelovelovelovelove!

Monday, January 12, 2009

My Company Is Full Of Major Fail And Also The Impending Doom Known As MY BIRTHDAY OMG

For the first time in a long time I would LOVE to be doing my job right now. I've got people who want me to take their money! They want insurance and I would give anything to be able to give it to them! But I cannot. Why? Because my company is using an extremely outdated operating system that seems to fucking FAIL on a regular basis. The only upside to this is that I can do whatever the hell I want on the internet in the meantime. The downside is that I've reached the end of the intarwebz and nothing is interesting me in the least. Figures...

I did something today that I can't remember ever doing before in my life. I bought myself an early birthday present. The gift of a glowing complexion and future skin cancer. Yes, that's right, I signed up for tanning.

Since it seems that winter really is here to stay for another 4 months or so and I'm not near crazy enough (or drunk enough) to sit outside in 50 degree weather in a bathing suit in order to get that sun-kissed glow I broke down and signed up for unlimited visits. We'll see soon if this idea, like my company's operating system, is full of fail.

Speaking of my birthday, it's on Friday and I am both dreading it and looking forward to it. I've never minded gaining another year, the only issue I have is that my birthday usually sucks to no end. Whether it's my car breaking down, my own mother forgetting that she birthed me on that day, or my husband up and leaves me there's usually some disaster that comes along to ruin the day. However, this year I am keeping an open mind. I'm with the most wonderful man I could ever dream of, I am surrounded by friends who love me (or at least do a fine job of pretending that they do), my car is decent and I'm in no fear of it breaking down, and I'm also taking the day off of work. I figure if bad luck wants to come and get me it will have to deal with me at home, in my pajamas, under the covers cause that's where I'll be.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Almost A Year In The Making

Who has two thumbs and was granted a divorce today?

*points at self with thumbs*


So far 2009 is turning out to be a pretty good year.